I Stand in the Gap
As a former evangelical intellectual I know what to do. I know where the theistic weaknesses are felt best. I use liberal Christian scholarship to do what I do, for liberals make the best arguments against evangelicalism, my chosen target audience (although I could choose to target liberals as a former liberal myself). Since I do, some atheists don't like that. Since I don't aim at the scholars but rather bring their arguments down to the educated people in the pews it makes me look unscholarly. Since I am not a scientist some scientifically minded people look down their noses at me. Since I don't have a PhD some people (mostly non-PhD degreed people) think I don't know what I'm talking about. Since I defend William Lane Craig from charges of being insincere, dishonest, irrational and personally evil, some atheists think I'm an accomodationist (which couldn't be further from the truth). I've answered a few other criticisms of me.
Most Christians don't like what I do, as you should know. Some of them have personally attacked me and continue doing so. I don't like this but it is what it is. I am vilified and misunderstood. It's a very tough place to stand. Sometimes I must wallow in the mire with Christian Bible thumpers. Other times I must deal with Christian scholars. Some people in the atheist community don't understand that I'm trying to reach out to Christians as best as I can. I wish they did but I can't expect them to. They demand conformity, just like any community does--a cookie cutter mentality I left for good when I left church.
I am a freethinker first and an atheist second.
But here I stand. I can do no other. ;-)